| twenty six. |
[11 Dec 2009|10:17pm] |
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Hannah Abbott, I have a question.
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| twenty five. |
[09 Dec 2009|11:44pm] |
WARDED TO SELF.
Charis, I miss you. You should be glad you don't have to be around this. I think everyone is mad. Something is wrong, Blythe and Maximus are just... I don't know. People are dead. People are in St. Mungo's. I don't know what to do. Melinda stayed for the battle. She stayed. She did something while I just had tea. But it's not that I'm regretting it? It's just incredulous to think that she was so brave. But Melinda was always the brave one. Sorry for writing all of this. I just don't know who else to talk to right now. Is it pathetic to talk to someone who is dead?
I hope you're having a lovely day. Night. Day or night.
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| twenty four. |
[08 Dec 2009|05:40pm] |
WARDED TO MELINDA.
So. You stayed.
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| twenty three. |
[06 Dec 2009|06:18pm] |
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Some people should be more careful.
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| twenty two. |
[12 Nov 2009|07:40pm] |
WARDED TO SELF.
Charis,
Vicky Frobisher wrote more of her story today. I wish you were here to read it because I'm sure you would've loved it. A little bit of ridiculousness is good. I know you would've thought so. At least when it comes to her stories. I still miss you. I wish you were here with me and not there because I'm so lonely. And Mum is mad and Dad is always silent and I hate the house. Your house isn't much better, though, sorry. Melinda is in a crisis. I don't know what everyone else is doing. I don't know if I care anymore. Right now. I don't know. Say hi to Cam, please.
I don't know what to do.
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| twenty one. |
[08 Nov 2009|02:01pm] |
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Does this I'm allowed to sell my brother?
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| twenty. |
[03 Nov 2009|06:34pm] |
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I'd only like to know one thing -- how is it okay for some people to blemish the name of my cousin just days after her death? Thanks for giving us time to grieve.
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| nineteen. |
[02 Nov 2009|06:53am] |
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WARDED TO SELF.
I can't fucking do this anymore. I'm done with this.
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| eighteen. |
[26 Oct 2009|05:29pm] |
WARDED TO MELINDA.
What number does it make it now? I thought we moved past dying and fighting (what a terrible way to phrase it, I know, I know) once everyone fought in the battle at Hogwarts. Does it take more than a school being destroyed and St. Mungo's filling up and innocent purebloods dying to make it stop? Why how what why really is insignificant -- no one cares, really no one does. The ones who are going around killing people certainly don't care. These are the Death Eaters that Mum supported and our family supported and... really? Why did we support death? What was it that we were really supporting? Can we just turn back time? Ugh.
Any ideas, Melinda?
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| seventeen. |
[09 Oct 2009|08:03pm] |
WARDED TO SELF.
I want to sleep for a long time. Now and later and even later and I'd like to be asleep for a while so that I don't have to deal with all this shit. Maybe I need to just count my blessings that I'm not dead or injured or that I don't have anyone dead but -- Millicent is someplace else and Melinda is helping the others and how much more will happen until things are just catastrophically turned around? I'm afraid for what Millicent's consequences are. It's pretty much well known that she's helped the Death Eaters, right? She's really going to Azkaban now. She's not going to be sent to anger management and a series of seminars. What now?
Why did the Death Eaters have to attack the auction? It was an auction, for Merlin's sake.
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| sixteen. |
[09 Oct 2009|08:01pm] |
WARDED TO MILLICENT.
Happy 19th, Millicent. How are things How How are things?
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| fifteen. |
[04 Oct 2009|03:40am] |
(HASTILY) WARDED TO SELF. What the fuck
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| fourteen. |
[02 Oct 2009|06:39pm] |
WARDED TO SELF.
I wonder when everyone changed. Well, no. Not everyone. Maybe everyone, but just really Charis and Melinda. Abigail, too, I guess. I've known Charis forever -- I mean, we did grow up together and we are related, but I've told her for so long that I know how she thinks and how she'll react to stuff and she's surprised me a lot in the past few weeks. It's strange to see her writing about about her feelings because she's always been a private person and why would she post publicly to everyone? I'm still baffled. Maybe she's changing while I'm just the same? Am I still the same? I don't even know. How do you know if you've changed at all? It's not some oh look here I've changed because it certainly can't be that simple. This is a task.
And Melinda! Melinda, who has changed a lot, if I'm understanding what she told me. She's been helping people and caring for others and it's just strange! And I'll admit that when she said that even her blood and her house couldn't protect her from the Death Eaters. Was it because she was helping others and negotiating with them? I don't want to meet a Death Eater at all. What would I do? I have no idea how I'd even meet them but I don't want to and I don't like this change and I'm sounding like a five year old. Purebloods -- RESPECTABLE purebloods -- are supposed to be privileged. This is NOT turning out like that. What good is it if I'm a pureblood and I'm a Slytherin and I am still in danger? I don't want to die, I don't want Melinda to die or continue hiding or move to America. I don't know how she helped Ruby Savage -- yes, for the good of getting a journal back A JOURNAL. Really.
She was probably closer to Hortense, that's why she wanted the journal.
Maybe it was Blaise Zabini's idea all along.
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| thirteen. |
[27 Sep 2009|12:16pm] |
WARDED TO MELINDA.Is the shop okay? Are you okay?
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| twelve. |
[20 Sep 2009|06:12pm] |
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I would like a vacation. Or to be elsewhere.
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| eleven. |
[18 Sep 2009|06:55am] |
WARDED TO MELINDA AND CHARIS.
Chaos makes me uncomfortable. What are you two up to?
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| ten. |
[07 Sep 2009|03:29pm] |
WARDED TO SLYTHERINS.
At least Hermione Granger isn't Head Girl? There's something to be happy about.
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| nine. |
[07 Sep 2009|03:03pm] |
WARDED TO SELF.
Reasons to go back to school:
- I suppose it is more than sensible to continue my education, especially since it doesn't seem like I have much of something else to do. Without my NEWTs, it's not like I'll be able to get a decent, worthwhile job anyways. And I'd very much prefer if I wasn't stuck tutoring little children my entire life. It doesn't look well for me.
- Less time spent with the children is always a good thing.
- The rules won't be as stringent as before. A plus.
- With no Head Girl positions, at least we know that Hermione Granger won't be appointed the position. Who knows what she'd do with that power?
- It'll give me something to do
Why am I making a list? I'm turning into Goldstein. Ugh.
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| eight. |
[23 Aug 2009|08:08pm] |
WARDED TO THE SLYTHERIN GIRLS.
I think we should all go someplace and do something relaxing. It is so much more fun than staying in and getting headaches because some people lack all sorts of logic. I think Francis Summerby thinks he can use big letters to get his point across when we know he cannot! Also, I think he fancies Harry Potter. This just goes to show what good relaxation and a day out can do for us. We can clear our minds of idiocy!
Yes? No?
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